Things to Ponder

Where to begin? I'm back to the what should I be doing with my life question...it's a constant! I've got to find a way to either work from home or work part-time...from home :) I want to be with my children more! With JV going to pre-school soon and then MC growing up so fast, I NEED MORE TIME! Trying to convince the boss of this is another battle in itself. He's a wonderful provider for me but sometimes I wonder what he's thinking! I know he's paving the way for us for the future BUT I want to enjoy my life and not just when I'm 50 :)

It's amazing how I feel when my house is organized and clean! The living room is almost complete! One more component and then we can move on to our bedroom! What a man! He does all the things on my honey-d0 list and some I don't even ask for!

So the question came up between the boss and myself, when we wanted to start "trying" again....I said it depends :) If I get to stay home, then I'd be ready at any point but if I have to go back to work, I'd like to wait just a bit :) And this is all dependent upon us having a boy!!!! Good luck right!!

Not Mission Impossible

So it's been a while since I've sat down and had words with my computer. Things are so busy right now! We just had my parents 30th wedding anniversary, a surprise party :) That was great! All their friends came and they were very surprised, ok so my mom was surprised, my dad is to smart for something like that! But we held it on my birthday, just early enough to make them wonder if it really was a party for my birthday (which we told them it was) :) My wonderful sisters were a huge part of this! I couldn't have done it with out them! And to top it all off they got me a wonderful gift for my birthday! Then this coming weekend is JV's birthday, she'll be 3! Wow! And then we are almost to October!

I feel like I'm floating through time, the weeks the days just going through the motions, it's hard to stand on shifting sand. I don't feel like I've had time to sit and enjoy dinner, I'm always worried about getting the kitchen cleaned up that night. Taking time to enjoy my girls, play with them and watch them grow! Or spend some "quality" time with the boss, God knows he needs it :) And then what about the time for myself, how do I take that time and not feel guilty for it. I feel pulled in so many directions by so many people, when can I sit and not worry about time flying by or who's going to do the laundry or will my children do well in school and then what to do when they graduate. Mom worries I know, I never thought I'd lose myself through it all though. Mission #1 - gain control again and enjoy something for myself!!