It's one of those days, the kind that seem to drag on forever. Have you ever had one of those days? That's rhetorical, I know you have...I need a plan, a goal a milestone to reach to let me know that I think my life is and was worth something. I don't want 20 years to go by and look back and regret what my life was, what I did or did not accomplish. I want to have made a difference. There are many people that are great at a lot of things and some make beautiful careers out of these things, I want to be one of those people. The ones that know that they are making a difference because they believe in what they are doing!
My daughter, Josephine changes her mind all the time with what she wants to be when she grows up. Some days it's a butterfly engineer but most of the time it's a cowgirl. I hope that works out for her :) I remember thinking I would be a brain surgeon, mostly because my dad wanted me to be and I thought that sounded good...and now when my daughter asks me what I want to be when I grow up I coyly mention "a mommy" and she laughs and tells me "you already are a mommy, you have to pick something else" so I say a book reader, that's a real career right? And she once again laughs at me and tells me to pick something better.
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." -Jeremiah 29:11
I have to believe that the Lord will lead me in the direction that he has set forth for me, that he knows my strengths and weaknesses and that my future is in his hands. I will have faith. Whether I'm to be a working mommy or a stay at home mommy, he will guide me down the path he has set forth for me.
Sometimes I need faith just to believe...
Monday, January 30, 2012
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Faithful to the Core
I have one follower.
I know I hardly ever write, and I know that I don't have that many posts, I have one follower. Let me just tell you about this one follower. She is amazing, she is kind and loving and selfless and I need her probably more than she needs me. She holds me up in ways she probably doesn't even know. I've leaned on her for so many years that to not have her would be detrimental to my health. She is wise and forgiving and beyond caring for her family. I'm not sure when the tables turned and I started admiring her more than myself. Probably not a difficult task. It is my sister. I am the older sister and can always remember trying to be the more mature one, the wiser one, the one who knew all the answers. Well I don't have them all...and I find myself going to her and asking her questions because I know she'll have the right answer for me.
She has loved me through thick and thin, sickness and pregnancies and health. Sounds a bit like a marriage doesn't it? However she is not allowed to get rid of me, ever! When I think of my best friends it might sound bad but I don't think of her, because in my mind she's more than that, she's my sister and that encompasses being a best friend, a sister, a mediator, a supporter, a devils advocate and so much more. She's part of my life line and it's sad and unhealthy but true...
Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.
Deuteronomy 31:6
I have one follower...and that means the world to me!
I know I hardly ever write, and I know that I don't have that many posts, I have one follower. Let me just tell you about this one follower. She is amazing, she is kind and loving and selfless and I need her probably more than she needs me. She holds me up in ways she probably doesn't even know. I've leaned on her for so many years that to not have her would be detrimental to my health. She is wise and forgiving and beyond caring for her family. I'm not sure when the tables turned and I started admiring her more than myself. Probably not a difficult task. It is my sister. I am the older sister and can always remember trying to be the more mature one, the wiser one, the one who knew all the answers. Well I don't have them all...and I find myself going to her and asking her questions because I know she'll have the right answer for me.
She has loved me through thick and thin, sickness and pregnancies and health. Sounds a bit like a marriage doesn't it? However she is not allowed to get rid of me, ever! When I think of my best friends it might sound bad but I don't think of her, because in my mind she's more than that, she's my sister and that encompasses being a best friend, a sister, a mediator, a supporter, a devils advocate and so much more. She's part of my life line and it's sad and unhealthy but true...
Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.
Deuteronomy 31:6
I have one follower...and that means the world to me!
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Just 5 Minutes Please!
I really need more than just 5 minutes but that seems to be my mind set lately. I could really use more time, which coincidentally is not something I can buy. I've got a jam packed week and really need to focus on things here at home to get them ready for the weekend. These are the days I wish I were a stay at home mom, more time to devote to my home and family. But since that is not an option, I'll forge on and do my best.
Do you ever find yourself wondering why we have 8 hour work days and then only a few hours of time at home before we go to sleep and do it all over again the next day?? If I were creating a day (which I am so NOT qualified to do) I would have 8 hour work days, 8 hour evenings and then 8 hours worth of sleep, that sounds like a good idea right? I'm sure there are some flaws to my plan but I'll pretend I don't see them :)
I find myself looking forward to 8 o'clock, not because some TV show is on that I want to see, not because it's the middle of the evening and I'm hoping to get to bed soon but because I know that my children will go to bed at 8 o'clock and I might get some peace and quiet. Do I feel guilty for feeling this? Yes, I do. But it's part of my life and I need to deal with it the best I can. I love my children don't get me wrong, I can't imagine my life with out them but sometimes I just need 5 minutes of peace and quiet to regroup and refocus. Some days that is easier said than done. Well since I said I had a jam packed week and a lot to do before the weekend gets here I should probably not be on here sitting in peace and quiet, blogging for the first time in months and get something done. Until another time, hopefully sooner than last!
T
Do you ever find yourself wondering why we have 8 hour work days and then only a few hours of time at home before we go to sleep and do it all over again the next day?? If I were creating a day (which I am so NOT qualified to do) I would have 8 hour work days, 8 hour evenings and then 8 hours worth of sleep, that sounds like a good idea right? I'm sure there are some flaws to my plan but I'll pretend I don't see them :)
I find myself looking forward to 8 o'clock, not because some TV show is on that I want to see, not because it's the middle of the evening and I'm hoping to get to bed soon but because I know that my children will go to bed at 8 o'clock and I might get some peace and quiet. Do I feel guilty for feeling this? Yes, I do. But it's part of my life and I need to deal with it the best I can. I love my children don't get me wrong, I can't imagine my life with out them but sometimes I just need 5 minutes of peace and quiet to regroup and refocus. Some days that is easier said than done. Well since I said I had a jam packed week and a lot to do before the weekend gets here I should probably not be on here sitting in peace and quiet, blogging for the first time in months and get something done. Until another time, hopefully sooner than last!
T
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